Emotions Running Wild

Dear Lord,

I don't know what exactly is hindering me from coming to you in my time of need. I filled burdened and slightly grieved although I have an abundance of reasons to be overjoyed. You have brought in more support than I need for Milan, and I'll be flying out in less than a two weeks. The summer will be outstanding - it'll be such a significant experience and one that will be intricately woven with the workings of your Holy Spirit. I can sense that our time in Italy will seem magically because it will have the supernatural element of your presence. I also have many people to see - from my sister-in-law and her fiance, to my dear friends at Brown, to my family in CT to enjoying several meals in the next couple of days with my co-workers...

But I'm sensing an end. The heavy sadness that weigh on my hear tand soul tells me that things are gong to be different. My first year with CCC is coming to a close and what a year it has been. There are so many people I've grown to love and appreciate over the course of this year, and those who I've known for a much longer time - and these people are leaving. Courtney, Rachel, Alan, Nick, Matt & Janet...it's time to say goodbye.

My Lord, may my feelings play out as you will. I am beyond grateful that you insist we cast our burdens, our anxiety upon you. As I seek to check off the things that I must do before I leave for CT next Tuesday and Italy after that, I pray that you may grant me your heavenly peace. I pray that you may shine through me and that I am conscious of your presence in my life and in others around me. Thank you for your endless showering of love, of compassion and of kindness. I will see dear friends again and make more in the future. May each new friendship be more genuine and Christ-like as you continue to shape me into the greatest servant I can be. I love you, my God and King, my Lord Jesus. Thank you for all you have done and will continue to do.

In your holy name, Amen.